never say never

Some things we don't talk about

Rather do without

Just hold the smile

Falling in and out of love

Ashamed and proud of

Together all the while

You can never say never

Why we don't know when

Time and time again

Younger now then we were before

Don't let me go

Don't let me go

Don't let me go

Don't let me go

Don't let me go

Don't let me go

Picture you're the queen of everything

Far as the eye can see

Under your command

I will be your guardian

When all is crumbling

Steady your hand

You can never say never

Why we don't know when

Time time time again

Younger now than we were before

Don't let me go

Don't let me go

Don't let me go

Don't let me go

Don't let me go

Don't let me go

We're pulling apart

And coming together again and again

We're growing apart

But we pull it together

Pull it together, together again

Don't let me go

Don't let me go

Don't let me go

Don't let me go

Don't let me go

Don't let me go

This song is from THE FRAY's latest album, i think its their 2nd single. Check it out.

Never Say Never- The Fray

Well, I think this song is great! The lead (Issac Slade) sang it with soul and power, his voice sounded really honest in

delivering the song. The lyrics and melody are a match made in heaven and people will feel deeply touched by the

sound and arrangement. Got to check this out! Personally, it touched me as my lovely gal dedicated this song to us.

GIVE me

im wasting my time doing nothing.

GIVE me a challenge that'd suit!

GIVE me something that'd I can work on!

GIVE me meaning of life so I can appreciate more and more!

GIVE me what you have gave others.

seriously, Im in need of a challenge, or else I'll just goof of and do nothing. and the bad part about it is that I'll be bitter about it.

So c'mon, if anybody asks me to do something interesting, give me a ring, and maybe I'll consider taking on that challenge!

of keyboards and capitalism

how I wondered..such a wonderful world,

full of gayness and tranquility,

where people walk hand in hand,

creating peace, spreading love,

enjoying what we call earth.

actually, i didn't know what to write. So I came up with this crap. Though, while I was coming up with this crap, I had a thought.

Who came up with the keyboard arrangements for the letters haa?

It's like, why didn't the follow the alphabets or something? and why is it all soo jumbled up. haiih, capitalism just made me confused again. So people with the answer, please tell me!!!

Confused average joe.

whaat?

aku rasa aku bosan.bosan kerana apa?bosan kerana mengikut. ikut apa ya?ikut apa yang disuruh la!

Why? Why? Why?

I'm sick and tired of this needing to DO what THINK that you need to do! ya'll get me? No for sure!

Ponder on this lingering question.

Imagine schools being more of a holistic- kinda subjective type of teaching. Imagine were teachers don't coerse you into learning but rather invite you over to think.

Imagine a place where you can think whats what and whats not, and at the same time develop your mental capabilities in pursuing the dreams of thinkers alike.

I got another question. Where would Einstein or Newton be if from the beginnings of their life, they were indoctrinated with these rigid and harsh way of using your mind. Just memorizing and getting to know the answers, where we all know that in a milisecond will fly straight out of your mind.

Please people, don't indoctrinate our nation with false hopes and dreams. Don't stunt their beautiful minds to work and create wonders. Please let us think our own thoughts and create our own geniuses!

By that spirit, we can enjoy freedom of soul, mind and spirit. And by that, we can find unity in all forms of life!

Just thinking yo....

Average joe's thoughts

hu'uh

hey guys...

long time no update huh? sorry, it's just been that I got a lot of things on my plate currently...

Hard to juggle stuff ain't it?

By the way, currently owning a Pentax K-m DSLR..totally awesome!

Average joe of joe-ness

Photographic memoirs

Friends and I

close up and personal.

Average Joe

my niece

a picture of Sofea Nur

acu's niece

edited by the average joe

taken by average joe's Pentax K-m

going to upload lots more later

sorry readers

i think yesterday's post was a wee bit to over. i apologise for that.

please readers, don't take it seriously. im ok and feel good.

thanks though.

pens of a misunderstood joe

aarggghhhhhh

apa lagi korang nak????

nak aku mampus????

nak aku merana?????

nak aku melutut mintak maaf??????

apa lagii???

cakap jek...aku buat la!!!

sbb aku ni apa kannn..betul tak??ha!

pens of an pissed off joe!

mood

im not in the mood. not in the mood for anythin'

where was that spunk when I came couple weeks back?

has the momentum swifted to smooth sailing, or have I put 'ma feet of the pedal?

10 days yo

work it

pens of the averageness joe

ouch

y'know...sometimes i feel disgraced.

when sometimes you work so hard for something, yet you can't get it. ya just ain't good enough.

looking back. where did I go wrong?

Did I neglect some parts of myself. did I over-do some other parts?

or am I just average. The average joe.

I ain't complaining of averageness. 'cuz it still got 'em perks and privilages. yet, dontcha' ever think that being a bit better than average may work for you?

put it into this way, when ya get something nice for a change, ain't it feel good? just sayin' that maybe, just maybe, you'd feel that sense of acclompishment for a wee bit of your grown up life?

yeah, good I ain't down 3. but better if i get more eh?

just sayin'....

better luck next time round joe.

Surrounded

Imagine.

Imagine.

Imagine.

Imagine sitting on the couch, minding your own bussiness and suddenly..........

4 HUGE monsterous "things" slowly coming towards you!

Well, at first you'd think,

"naah..never mind, they'd won't bother me"

But then, they'll mutter out these grusomely gross sounds/words, that when you'll try your hardest best not to hear it but in the end, crumble to those loud sound decibels.

It doesn't stop there, the things they say actually stick at the back of your head and gives you nightmares!OMG! But who is it im referring to?

My pregnant sisters(3) and their friend(1)!!!!

Imagine them talking about breast feeding, the koyak of the tuttut and etc!!!! OMG its not for a man to hear once, but over and over again?thats just torture.

Though the thought of it is motherly etc, but please, respect the dude sitting there first!

haha

Nvm, got Sofea Nur to comfort me, if not, got another Nur in my mind. *winkwink*

something special

noticing this has been a long time. A long time indeed I have noticed. It's just now I have realized the importance of it.

I have observed for a long time that it is the human nature to not appreciate things that are in front of them. Especially their family. Wondering and wondering I wonder. Why is that? Is it not true that family isn't important? Are people ignorant enough to not see that family is family and nothing can replace it?

I went to Kedah the other day, specifically Sg Petani to wish someone special a happy early birthday. Initially, I went there to spend some quality time with her. However, I got something else. I got a feeling, a feeling that I haven't been able to receive nor feel in a sense of aww in a long time.

There they where, sparks of laughter and fits of love enveloped in the beautifully renovated

semi-D at laguna merbok. Though outsiders will just see it as a simple house, I saw it as comfort and stability. Going through those great gates, awaited I in the house was none other than Fadli, Ija and Mina that along with their stunning and always mesmerizing Kak long. Smiles and laughters accompanied me in the house.

Well, honestly at first. I was quite nervous, quite anxious too. Why wouldn't I be, I didn't know how to react to the moment and adding to the debacle, I was about to meet the carri

ers of these children and also the carrier of the carrier (haha) or in other words~nenek.

Well, going back to the important bit. The feeling. Having met them and spend some good 3 days with them. I felt accepted, and loved. The feeling where you wake up in the morning from a night of a torrid blizzard, and you feel warm and safe under that big wool blanket and you just wanna stay in bed, feeling safe and cozy. Having spent 3 days there, I didn't want to go back. I just wanted to stay there, and be apart of them. Just be there with them, and relish the moments of having somebody younger that looks up to you.

Though, it's not like I don't cherish my family. It's just being the youngest, you feel that sometimes they just take you for granted. Taking you for a kid that will never grow up into a man. While the family is getting older, the closeness will still be there but is scarce and will come out occasionally. I'm not complaining, but sometimes, a person needs to feel that unconditional love.

ps: miss you

peck peck

I have a friend.

A fat and gullable one.

Though, it's fun to be around him.

Talking and rambling.

Joking and poking.

Comparing sizes.

All fun all hilarious.

See you semester begins.

My fat and adorable friend.

PeckPeck!!

Unfinished post

A man had once said that, and I quote,

"The culture we have does not make people feel good about themselves. And you have to be strong enough to say if the culture doesn't work, don't buy it"

The saying has a strong meaning, powerful I might add. Though, the question that I may like to impose is, to what extent do we need to utilize the above saying, or infact, use the piece of advice given to us. Well, let's analyze.

Firstly, lets look at the quote above. On a personel level, I love that quote. For me, it means stick to the man. If the norms of society doesn't work out for you, then why follow it? I mean, I am a believer of the random soul (if you don't know then I will make a post on the random soul later, just ask aite). If for example, the random soul wants to live in the society, however, due to the inadequecy(is it spelled right?) of the society, that random soul can't well blossom.

Making it easier for me to type(hehe), if you want my full idea/input/output on this matter. Give me a comment and I'll hit back.

ps: sorry, gtg..nanti aku siapkan post ni

Anti-Climatic

Have you ever felt the feeling of that preclimatic rush? You anticipate something good, great infact. Something that can give you pleasure.

Pleasure in a sense that you feel your heart beat faster and faster. Your palm gets sweaty and you respirate faster. You feel something inside of you wanting to gush out hard and fast. You scream deep down inside wishing it will last forever. And when it comes out.

You feel like

Aaahhh....*wait, is that it??*

That is the feeling of anti-climatic. When you hope the main event to be so god damn interesting and well, pleasurable. It ends up to be, as a friend of mine once said, non-chalant! So freaking slow and boring that your fantasies (Maria Ozawa anyone?) could be more exciting and even, if you intend to, jerk it off manually (you get what I mean) it would be better.

Though, to all those people with nasty thoughts (yes you qilahS), this post ain't about no explicit pornographic memoirs of mine, but more to the disgust that I have from watching the most hyped about final in, well I guess, the decade!

Barcelona vs Man Utd

Who would expect? A trashing I might add. A Champions League Final Trashing. Wait. Who got trashed again? What? The DEFENDING champions? wow. Slow down, take a breather. *sigh...*

Calm. Calm. CAlm. CAlm. CALm. CALm. CALm. CALM. CALM. CALM. CALM!!!!!!!!!!!

*deep breath....in...out....*

Firstly, congratulations Barcelona. Well fought, great determenation, magnificant strategy, overall fantastic performance. Messi was everywhere, Iniesta was strategically brilliant, Eto'o was pin point and Puyol was dominating. Congratulations.

Man Utd? United who? wait, was Roo playing? Ando anyone? Vida was well "dominating" yeah! Ronny? Well, one word for you son, glutton is a sin of life.

The main problem in the MU team was simple, no determination at all. You could see all night that the midfield was dominated by Iniesta, Xavi and Busquets. Roo wasn't chasing back, Ronny was just, well, Ronny. Park wasn't up to form. Ando was embarassing. Giggs, your a legend mate but that performance was like Kieran Gibbs fumbling the ball!

Well, analyzing it, I believe that Darren Fletcher was the key to the United 4-3-3. Since he's not around. Well, yet again Congrats Barca.

ps: Roo, what happened man?

One Tree Hill

I just gotta say One Tree Hill is one of the best TV series that I have watched.
Not only because of the plot and storyline the series potray but also the choices of music in their background that have made it quite array from the norms.

An actor, Bethany-Joy Galeotti (Haley James) magnificant voice and brilliant songs! At first I thought she just acted the whole singer-song writer act, but she actually is a singer! If you have the time, go and hear "Feel This". Simple yet powerful, you feel that your surrounded by the calmness and sootheness of the ocean! *cheesy haha* tapi betul apa....

Plus, season 6's finale gila babi la weh!! Who died???? What happend to nate??? How is Leyton's (Lucas/Peyton) baby???nghehehe

Gotta watch it www.cwtv.com go go go!!!!

Stop and think

Who am I?

Where do I belong?

What should I do?

How is this going to end? (or start)

Stop and think. Is this you. Is your life yours?or is it played by a puppeteer? think and Stop.

A friend of mine

I have the sense of being inferior.

Inferior to whom you might ask, inferior to a friend is my answer.
One of my good friend, that keeps me up and running at an instant though he is far far away.

Comparably, he is much much better than me. Academically gifted, has that great natural leader tendency, likeable by all makciks, pakciks and peers.
(though we are quite the same standard in looks~but I'm physically fit than him)

I feel inferior and jealous towards his path. The path that once upon a time I dreamt about it night and day. Getting a scholarship, fast tracking to a foreign country, being miss and adoured by family and friends. Returning home with showers of hugs and kisses from love ones.
I feel inferior towards him because he is a friend that shows upmost humbleness, that calm and laid back attitude that reassures you that everything is achieveable.

*sigh*

One day, I am going to overcome that inferiority complex and get pass you. When that day comes, you'll be there and say "well done".

p/s: go go Kur!

dumb genius

One more to go, yes, one more to go.... wait,one more to go till I finish THIS semester.
So, how many more till I graduate? or better yet, how many more till I die?

This years finals surprised me, it is one of the few times in life where I somehow felt that the time allocated was not enough. 3 hours is not enough to answer a paper. 3 bloody hours is not enough.

Though I thought. Why was I able to answer less than 3 hours last year? Is it because now I am an undergraduate? Are the questions harder? Am I thinking of a better answer now?

Or is it because I'm getting dumber?
*sigh*
A dumb genius...cool

Sailing, Drifting

Someone said to me that they like sailing. Drifting in the middle of the ocean, taking in the scenery, watching the sunset over the ends of world.
They like being alone, just sucking it in. Surviving independently in the midst of calamity. Taking all those rough winds and high tides, absorbing those negative powers into light-hope of a better journey ahead.

Though, some of these people say that the hardest part of sailing is when you have two on the boat. Two on board means:

2 hopes
2 desires
2 ambitions
2 dreams
2 feelings

One might ask, "What is in that fuss of twos?"
One might answer, "Keeping both at bay, both equally happy and song."

Then comes the challenges of sailing in twos.
As those ferocious tides and waves come splashing at you, destroying your boat of faith, killing the captain of hope and finally dismantling those flags of trusts.
Both of you are knocked unconscious, waking up knowing that you have drifted, far far away from each other. Hoping that when the tides reside and ocean calms you will drift back again.

Those that are strong with wit and courage of the seas will peddle hard and strong to get back on the boat and sail once more as twos. Hoping that another storm won't dent their boat.

Others, well, drift and drift and drift. Finally sailing alone.

Winds have came on our boat, turbulating and rocking, I slipped, but I'm holding tight, tight as knot to those handles of joy. No storm nor tide can take me down. Oh no no... I am holding tight.
The question is now, are you?

I am afraid

I am afraid, of what to happen.

Looking back at life, I wouldn't have imagined going this far. I'm sitting for my first undergraduate final. Wow.
I've just seem to realize it just a couple days back. Undergraduate. The thing is, I'm afraid.I'm afraid I'll flunk hard. REAL hard.

Though, the sense of fear actually doesn't help much, well, except for added pressure. It's just, as well as I know I am, I think, I don't really care. The thing I know is, my self-comfortability ahead of everything else.

So as much as I am afraid of this finals, I'm not doing anything (i.e studying) at all (or as not that much).
Well, I guess this is who I am. A lazy genius (haha).

*note: masak la minah yang dapat aku.pemalas!!nghehehe

I'm just me

i think that I am inefficient. I'm not good enough for anything.

I look at other people and see that they have specialties. Some are smart, some are athletic, some have those natural leader tendencies. And I feel that these people have an upper-edge compared to me. I'm lazy, ignorant, slobbish, easily said I am nothing.

I guess lots of people tend to feel this way, including me, I want to be good, great. But I can't feel that. I can't feel that one day I'll be great. I feel that I'll only be an ordinary bloke living next to you.

*sigh*

All expectations blown away. I'm not good nor great. I'm just me.

Tribute

what do I want in life?

I want someone. Someone that can understand me, someone that can read my thoughts, someone that knows what I want and when I want it.

I am being selfish, I want what I want when I want it. Never have considered other people along the way. People that have help nurture and mould me of what I am right now. I am an ungrateful human being. Undeserving....

Please understand that I am sorry. For what I have done, and for what I have been. I will not promise change nor promise not to change. I will do something, to make things right...for you, for people that have helped so much. To ease the pain of your hearts and mind. To lift the burden of your sorrows towards me and my ego. But...

What I ask is time. For me to search for myself. To redefine myself and what I want in life. To let my heart and soul and mind to sort things out. To differentiate my rocks from my pebbles and my pebbles from my sand.

Hear me out.....your son, brother, bear and friend.

the climb

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about whats waiting on the other side
It's the climb

miley cyrus

Listen to the words, fathom the words,digest the meaning and you will climb.

<3

i miss you
your so close yet i miss you
come back
please come back