noticing this has been a long time. A long time indeed I have noticed. It's just now I have realized the importance of it.
I have observed for a long time that it is the human nature to not appreciate things that are in front of them. Especially their family. Wondering and wondering I wonder. Why is that? Is it not true that family isn't important? Are people ignorant enough to not see that family is family and nothing can replace it?
I went to Kedah the other day, specifically Sg Petani to wish someone special a happy early birthday. Initially, I went there to spend some quality time with her. However, I got something else. I got a feeling, a feeling that I haven't been able to receive nor feel in a sense of aww in a long time.
There they where, sparks of laughter and fits of love enveloped in the beautifully renovated
semi-D at laguna merbok. Though outsiders will just see it as a simple house, I saw it as comfort and stability. Going through those great gates, awaited I in the house was none other than Fadli, Ija and Mina that along with their stunning and always mesmerizing Kak long. Smiles and laughters accompanied me in the house.
Well, honestly at first. I was quite nervous, quite anxious too. Why wouldn't I be, I didn't know how to react to the moment and adding to the debacle, I was about to meet the carri
ers of these children and also the carrier of the carrier (haha) or in other words~nenek.
Well, going back to the important bit. The feeling. Having met them and spend some good 3 days with them. I felt accepted, and loved. The feeling where you wake up in the morning from a night of a torrid blizzard, and you feel warm and safe under that big wool blanket and you just wanna stay in bed, feeling safe and cozy. Having spent 3 days there, I didn't want to go back. I just wanted to stay there, and be apart of them. Just be there with them, and relish the moments of having somebody younger that looks up to you.
Though, it's not like I don't cherish my family. It's just being the youngest, you feel that sometimes they just take you for granted. Taking you for a kid that will never grow up into a man. While the family is getting older, the closeness will still be there but is scarce and will come out occasionally. I'm not complaining, but sometimes, a person needs to feel that unconditional love.
ps: miss you
