I died

I died a little bit inside.

It was the first time that I met you for months. It was supposed to be something special. It was supposed to be remembered.

But I met you, and I could feel this wide gap between us.

And I died a little bit inside.

Pretending

I am pretending to be Okay.

I am pretending to be Strong.

I am pretending to not Care.

For the sake of not showing how much I need you.

For the sake of not showing how much I want you.

Because you think I am too desperate.

Because you think I am a no one.

Look.

I do not care if I am not the one.

I do not care if in the future you find someone else.

But what I do care.

Is I want to be there every step of the way.

Not as someone special, but as your god damn friend.

Give this friendship a chance.

Stop avoiding me.

Stop avoiding me.