That one moment...

Have you ever had that one moment where you just look in front of you and see a big dark wall, as if everything beyond that was your future but you can't see shit.

That is truly a horrendous feeling to have, it feels that all that you have worked for, and all that you planned, is just a waste of time and energy! That for once in your life, ypu don't expect anything from anyone, even from yourself.

I guess I'm feeling that right now.

No one to talk to, no one wanting to care, no one in your life that truly recognizes that you're in utter pain.

Yes, I am a man that tends to hide these emotions from normal acquantaince, I do not feel that some random people should know how you feel and your most vulnerable moment. So I heard this saying on twitter the other day.

"you've come to the point in life where you don't need a bunch of friends, but you need few loyal friends"

That's where the problem comes from, what I actually need is the ONE that will take my heart away, that ONE person that I can share all the hearts ups and downs. I thought I found you, I thought you were it, but you riped my hearts into pieces.

I have would do anything for you, I would have been the perfect man for you. I have never complained and I have nevet stopped loving you. But it hurts, it hurts when you say no, it hurts when you say we are over.

As words front Adele, just take it all and don't look back at this crumbling fool.

Tablet blogging

I guess i haven't blogged for quite some time now. Well I guess this is a fresh start, for a reason of course.

I had this someone, who was my avid reader or I might say my only reader. She loved the way I wrote and the way I articulate words into letters and texts, and yes, as you have might guessed, is no longer with me. So let me do this, as a gift or perhaps a last ditch effort to remind you about us...

Thank you for 3 wonderful years, and this blog is a testament to my love for you.

Ps: tablet blogging is not that bad