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what do I want in life?

I want someone. Someone that can understand me, someone that can read my thoughts, someone that knows what I want and when I want it.

I am being selfish, I want what I want when I want it. Never have considered other people along the way. People that have help nurture and mould me of what I am right now. I am an ungrateful human being. Undeserving....

Please understand that I am sorry. For what I have done, and for what I have been. I will not promise change nor promise not to change. I will do something, to make things right...for you, for people that have helped so much. To ease the pain of your hearts and mind. To lift the burden of your sorrows towards me and my ego. But...

What I ask is time. For me to search for myself. To redefine myself and what I want in life. To let my heart and soul and mind to sort things out. To differentiate my rocks from my pebbles and my pebbles from my sand.

Hear me out.....your son, brother, bear and friend.

the climb

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about whats waiting on the other side
It's the climb

miley cyrus

Listen to the words, fathom the words,digest the meaning and you will climb.

<3

i miss you
your so close yet i miss you
come back
please come back

alone

being alone means differently to other people.

sometimes people like to be alone as they could have a time on their own doing their own things with their own pace. Just relaxing and doing their own shit.

sometimes people don't like to be alone since being alone to them means that you suck and you don't have any friends. They like to be around someone that can give them attention, that can talk to them, make jokes, laugh the whole way round.

sometimes people are not alone but feel alone. There would be hundreds and hundreds of people around them, acknowledging their existence, embracing their needs and desires yet the still feel alone. There is this emptiness that creeps in their minds and hearts, it makes them feel that no one in this world understands you. No one can ever have a decent conversation with you, that you can actually express yourself the way you want it. Even the closest person to you that was once the go-to-guy when you had problems now feel so distant and so far away and the only thing that you wanna do is SCREAM! or yet even better, take a gun-shove it down your mouth, pull the trigger back and release........much easier

where are you in?

i know where i am

rama-rama

post kali in akan disajikan di dalam bahasa ibunda ku..jikalau tak faham,lantak ko la..

saya ada dgr kisah rama-rama,

rama-rama yang dulunya ulat hodoh,

namun dijaga dan dibelai,

menjadi ciptaan yang mahakarya,

namun,

rama-rama tidak boleh dikongkong,

digengam tegas,

kerna,

gengaman erat itu,

menyebabkan rama-rama terbang jauh,

dan,

jarang-jarang kembali,

rama-rama harus dibelai,

dalam gengam erat tapi lembut,

kerna kelembutan itu,

melembutkan hati rama-rama untuk kembali lagi,

merindui kelembutan itu,

rama-ramaku.

haha..quite funny for my first BM post ain't it?

weddings

2008 has been a hectic year for me. In terms of weddings and engagement mind you. Imagine this.

KAK LONG

nikah&tunang: march

sanding: may

KAK NGAH

tunang: march

nikah&sanding: may

KAK LANG

nikah,tunang&sanding: august

KAK AYU

tunang: december

MAWI&EKIN

nikah,tunang&sanding: december

....................................

*why on earth is mawi in my list??*

Well, the point of this. Why is it a fuss when someone as undetrimental to the earth's outcome as a cow shitting on the padi field at Felda Taib Andak, be so hyped about due to his marriage? I don't deny the fact though that he is popular and people adour him, but still, he is just human. He didn't do anything that special, he didn't actually find a cure for HIV or solve world hunger, he was just one of those lucky blokes that sing for a living, that entertain us~ENTERTAIN.

Siti Nurhaliza was also hyped over proportion over her wedding, I'm not gonna be biased by saying that she deserves it because she sang at Royal Albert Hall though~because she doesn't deserve the hype of that massive wedding, which mind you half of ot was sponsored.

Though, the cheated many unwitty Malaysians to waste one-and-a-half hour of their lives to watch them bewedd~they should be ashamed more to use their marriage to actually gain income from rights to broadcast the wedding to heeding the traffic in Malaysia due to closed roads so they can drive easily. My gosh, such horrible people.

One thing that uneases me is the fact that during the akad nikah people couldn't enter the masjid because some network has the right to broadcast the akad nikah. For me, I would be like "Fuck You" 'cuz I don't give a rat ass about it. I just want to go to the masjid and pray to god, NOT watch people that are unimportant to me to get married.

Well, I was thinking though. If it were for say Craig Venter, who's studies on DNA sequencing change the outlook on biodiversity in the ocean, then that would be an honour to see him get married. Simply because, he did what Mawi and Siti can't do. Change the world.

Let's embrace thinkers, not posers!

go world..

ps: ouh ya..congrats ayu for the engagement!no malam pertama yet aa!hehe

bali trip

you know what?
im going on a trip to bali
its 9.17 and im boarding at 9.50
i arrived at 8.30
dahla terus check-in
my sister kelam kabut
but she didn't check the ticket
so
we didn't had our breakfast yet
i have gastritis
my tummy tengah berangin
shizz
why la kelam kabut?
steady laaa..
haishh
till next time
signing off

*wuhuu bali trip!*

~gonna miss my hun though~